My response to President Obama’s speech to the 2011 HRC dinner.

I vow to GOD and this country, that I will dedicate my life to this possibility and  I am more than hopeful that this is going to happen. My only sin is that I’m so passionate (show guiltiness towards this cause) , so dedicated to this cause. God loves everyone so why can’t we ?

I am more passionate about this cause more than anyone will ever know. My heart hurts for those who are not treated like me! I am going to seek the change I wish for in this country, in this world. I am going to show God what I can do with the blessings he has given me. I make this promise to my brothers and sisters and GOD that I will show them all what I will make happen with the blessings given unto me.  I cried tears of hope, when I heard my President speak on Equality of the people I love, of our people we love! I want this so bad, I can’t sleep and I will never stop.

God gave me this purpose, he told me that this is what I am supposed to do with my life. The video I posted earlier gave me tears of sadness ( the African (I think Somalian) person), but our nation’s leader gave me tears of hope.

I never understood and still don’t and probably never will understand how we can do this to one another.My President, OUR President is working to change this. I love my President because of this cause.

My heart cries for this, my heart yearns for this to happen. I cannot disappoint my heart , my blessing that God has given me. God may I burn in hell if I have sinned by making this my purpose in life. (( I’m adamant ))Wait  Excuse me, let me correct myself, because I know God makes no mistakes. I have a duty and my duty that God gave me was to the freedom that they, WE deserve. I swear no one will ever know the love and compassion that I have for my brothers and sisters and this cause. I defend my brothers and sisters to the end. THERE IS NOTHING THAT SEPARATES ME OR YOU FROM THEM, FROM US. Because it’s not just ‘them’ it’s us!

 You truly don’t know how important this is to me, I would live my life without a husband and child (children) in order to make this happen, and that is my true joy in this life.

People keep acting like religion is so judgmental and discriminate towards ‘certain’ people, please let us not forget that God told us, YOU are not to be judgmental and that he will only return to a diverse house. Even better, He told us, YOU, to not HATE your, MY,  brothers and sisters.

I will not (never) be satisfied, I will not DIE until this freedom becomes reality.

I am going to show God what I can do with the blessings he has given me and this is what I am going to show him!

                             LEGALIZE GAY!

2011 VA Pride-fest

Today downtown at the Kanawha Plaza, was Virginia’s pride-fest. I witnessed an array of beautiful people from all parts of Virginia. It was so beautiful despite the cloudy and humidified atmosphere. I loved every moment of it. I feel like it was a place where everyone felt so proud! I was proud just be being their. They had everything! Free wine tasting sponsored by any college students brand of choice Barefoot, and they also had a beer truck, yuk I definitely passed on that one. There was my all-time most favorite-st (i know its not a word) non-profit organization, HRC (Human Rights Campaign) :-) I could eat breath smell HRC all day everyday. I of course spent a lot of time at that table and of course bought yet another equality shirt. Their was the Service Leaders Defense Network, the only organization whose sole purpose was to repeal ‘Don’t ask, Don’t Tell’. Their decades long dedication to repealing this legislation was finally rewarded by my Hero Congressmen Patrick Murphy. The also had some pretty sexy men tootling around shirt-less and the more provocative were in just their undies which they were only advertising, great excuse. Throughout the day, as I was engulfed in this whirlwind of pride, I kept looking at my gay brothers and sisters and watching their beautiful bright smiles on their faces and kept thinking how could anyone hate such beautiful people. But not once did I feel any sympathy, (the feeling of I feel bad for these people) because despite the ignorance they are able to press ahead and not see the ugly but try and change it.

 Every single person that I laid my eyes re-ignited my passion and purpose in my life. I don’t care what anyone’s personal opinion is on this matter because you know what, IT DOESN’T MATTER. How one lives there life is no ones business but there own. Before I made it out to the pride fest, my eyes were stuck on HBO’s documentary on the repeal of ‘Don’t ask, Don’t Tell’. In 1999 a man by the name of Barry Winchell was murdered after being taunted for mouths by homophobes in his infantry. My heart broke when I saw that part, it was beaten to death with a baseball bat in his bed. Talk about someone hating someone that much, its so sickening. I will forever remember people like Barry. In the end of the documentary of course it ends with the greatest news of all, that on Sept. 20th 2011 Gays in the military could finally be open about who they truly are. I felt such comfort in my heart, I’ve never been so happy for someone else, especially people I do not know or will ever have the pleasure of knowing. But I couldn’t help but smile and yes I’ll admit a tear of joy fell. For in the end, GOOD ALWAYS OUT WEIGHS THE BAD.

When I grow up

When I grow up and my childhood home will be nothing but a memory that when I share my homelife growing up it will require great memory, I will remince on the sounds of owls n bats and all those creatures that lurk n the dark. Its the most wonderful sound. It reminds me of the life everyone is not blessed to be surrounded by. I will tell people that despite living n such a promonent suburban area, the sounds of what was here first still dominates this land I call home. Looking out now, the clouds are at a standstill slowly dancing across the sky and you can see those little birdies flying around that engolf mesquitos n those other blood thursty creatures that annoy us all. I will reminice on the waves of sound, n how it comes n goes like ocean waves and wind. I swear its probably one of the greatest stories ever told that none of us will ever understand so I jus listen. I hear the faint sounds of air conditioners that my homebodied neighbors leave on high may through september and the faint sounds of domesticed hevins (dogs) but thankfully it is muffled by the sounds of life outside my home. Ill reminice on how peaceful this sound is n how soothing it is to my soul, how it helps me to contain myself from the ignorant views n society. It reminds n that n the end, this is all that is important. This is the one thing we call can pass on the our future. It is the one thing that will never change n that’s why I love it so much. We can change almost everything n our lives except for this. But who would want to, its perfect just the way it is. And as the sun falls asleep n the night life begins, the sounds of heavy rain sprinkles across my home. Its the blessing the life outside gives us touching every part of our lives, giving hope that a fresh start is always capable of us all. No matter where we are, n what we are doing it these sounds always put on a show , all we have todo is watch and listen. This is what I will remember when I speak of my home.